Resonating thoughts

There are days when I feel like walking away...when Im so jealous..when I wish I was epicentre of his life. But then I go back thinking that its alright. And sometimes just crying… just tired … really tired…. And worse is just when I feel alright, it goes back to being bad. And with that I wish I could walk away or maybe make you stay

The best part about knowing that your life will end soon is being aware that I have a deadline to do all the things I ever wanted to do. As we grow up, we assemble a pile of things as “to-do”. People to meet, food to eat, places to go… What more: Pent up anger, pent up love and small conversations that we never have. Because, death is the most taken for granted aspect of our lives. We live each day, pushing everything for tomorrow. For tomorrow might just be a better day to push everything to another day. We fight about the wrong done unto us and then do wrong to unto others. We crib how nothing is changing yet we hate it when everything changes. Break hearts but don’t want our hearts to broken. We want to breathe but yet never ready to risk being alive. My numerous visits in the more so recent years to the hospital made me familiar with the term “Flat-line”, signifying that it’s the ups and downs which keep us alive. We say all the wrong words and leave the right words unspoke...

The ends of so many relationships begin the same way. You start to feel lonely with someone. And loneliness within a relationship is really hard to fix. You can’t just go to the other person and say, “Help me not feel so lonely with you.” Could they even do that if they wanted to? First, they would have to understand the source of this feeling and there is a good chance that this is something that you cannot even define yourself. I think that the things that we crave the most from other people are never things we can ask for. They are things that must happen naturally and cannot be forced. We can ask someone to try to understand us but we cannot ask someone to want to. We can ask someone to notice us but we cannot ask someone to stop seeing through us. We can ask someone to be kind and more patient but we cannot ask someone for true love. We can only recognize and appreciate these things when someone can give them to us, and learn to forgive them when they can’t. It’s hard because i...

​A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possib...