How long do I live In this Ordeal Contriving happiness with each day passing by, Enumerously I have dug into Myself to see & feel What Me Cries Cried, Silently unheard Clenching my teeth pressing against the pillow To sink into nullity, I wait. This Ordeal didnt begin To abrogate but to Deaden Me. I speak to voidness Desolation has befriended me for long.. I search..in the darkness, only to Stumble and fall Pains borne within.. kill my soul Was I born human Or now am I one My Existence doesn't cease ..and yet I don't exist This ordeal just stops me.. ..If only I knew from what I search ...in darkness .. Alas! for What ??
Post-its from my mind ...